johnmyrrh

I look back 2 see d crowded roads i left ago frenzz who desertd mewthout a gud byeee nd dos who nvr likd me .. coz i hate dem "no look back" i say nd move on withered wth thirst nd tired shattered nd broken i luk back again my mum 's lullaby. ... .. . my pop 's strong shoulders.. .. my growng up. . my first step ... my first failure .. .. bruisedknees ,tears mixed wth sand ;;;;;; "no more tears .. ." i hear nd move on .. before a steep road stonely nd lonely withroad backs allaround i take a sign nd close my eyes. .. i rememr d dose who wiped my tears . .. suddenly i opened ma eyes. .. to haunted solitude.. . no one besides me . .. so many memories.. .. ???????????????? ???????????????

???????????? yet i feel empty, drained ... lost .. ... .. ... .. ... .. ... .. .. voices fadeaway, nd breath iz caught in ma lungs .. .. visions blurr'''''''''' i look ahead. .. nd wth giant stride .. . i move on. ... .. well we all move on ... life nvr stops . .. let me tell m vry carng nd affectionate. . i wanna b wth my dear ones more nd more .. . i wanna rmbr all d days all dos moments which i live wth dem.. . bt soon u see dat u r 2 small in front of time. .. everythng jst goes ahead. ..and dose sweet memories become a forbidn thought . .. so. ... .. ... .. . afraid of wot i see ,i struggle 2 even breathe my memories 4evr leavng a scar n me makng me drop 2 my knees.. . no matter how hard u try, i feel frail, weak nd afraid 2 leave my shell ... . 4 evr fallng a sleep on a pillow full of tears ... my heart feelng brittle.. . wthout fail , my blood leavng a trail.. . i screamout vl anyone save me 4 m my self . .. or i vl hav 2 continue 2 fall ... oh. .. so u r still readng. .. dat mean u undrstnd d critical balance.. . how 2 lose ur old dears nd how 2 adjst in new ones. .. .how 2 leave all d memories. ... yah .. .. . sweet or bitr . . bt still dey r inside u ... so hee i carry on.. .. .. fallng into d deep of my mind .. swallowed by dose ghouluies of my memories, afraid evn tried 2 f 8 back.. .. i can hear d inconsistent laughter of dose demons in my brain ... .. ,rumbling through my head like a speedng train. ... . no matter. .. how much . ... .i cry ,i vl nvr let u 2 see a tear streak down my cheek.. .. . atleast i m nt weak enough 2 let u see in ma breakdowns peak/ // // // after a while .. of tear streaked pain.. ,i let it be, knowng dat i cant wash it ... all away . . push it away or wsh evry bit of it away ;;;; but i know dat it has nt completely disappeard .. .. since nothng can go 4 evr. .. .. well i thnk if u hav read it carefully. . den u may know evrythng regadng my nature, behaviour.. nd evn .. ... .. my past. ... bt. ... .i was nt like dat 4 m startng ... once i didnt. . thought .. of dear ones .. . like dis ... .bt life is a bigst mystery it . .. is a bigst culprit. .. nd it shows u d way it goes.. .. ..so may b 1 day u vl also agreed .. . 2 dis??????