I signed up thinking this would be a great risk free way to meet and greet new people Possibly meet that special someone. I see you had a look see. What deterred you from fallowing up with a quick message to start a new and exciting relationship ? I like what I read. Trust me a read a lot of profiles. Only like maybe ten caught my attention. So is this a waste of time and effort ? I never had this much lack of attention. I think with the way it is going I would have better luck attending the Bar and After hours scene. Prove me wrong.
PLEASE DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME READING THE REST OF THIS IF YOU ARE UNABLE TO HANDLE THE TRUTH. THE TRUTH IS I AM BRUTALLY HONEST. I FEEL THAT EVEN IF THE TRUTH HURTS IMMEDIATLY IT'S BETTER THEN BEING LIED TOO, TO EVENTUALLY LEARN THE TRUTH DRASICALLY INCREASING THE EMOTIONAL DAMAGE AND ADDING CAUSE FOR THE TRUST TO BECOME QUESTIONABLE.
I USED TO BE A HARDCORE RAVER. ATTENDING PARTIES ALL OVER NORTH AMERICA. CLUB DRUGS WREEKED HAVOC ON MY LIFE FOR MANY WEEKENDS UNTIL IT STARTED TO ENCROCH ON MY WEEK DAY ROUTINE THEN THE BATTLE WAS ON. FOR 2 YEARS I STRUGGLED WITH THE ADDICTIONS I DEVELOPED FEARING I WOULD NEVER BE RID OF THESE AWFUL RIDICULUS DISEASE; AS I COME TO LEARN. IT WASN'T A CHOICE REALLY IT'S classified A AS DISEASE. I DISAGREE IT IS A CHOICE AND THOSE WHO BELIEVE IT A DISEASE ARE HIDING BEHIND THE TERM BECAUSE THEY ARE TOO SCARED TO ATTEMPT ADJUSTING TO THE SOCIAL NORMS. THEY DO HAVE A POINT THOUGH THAT I IGNORED COMPLETLEY OUT OF ARROGANCE. I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD NEED A CHEMICAL TO BE SOCIAL. I ATTENDED MEETINGS A.A. C.M.A. C.A. I EVEN FOUND A MEETING FOR SEX ADDICTION. AT THE TIME THAT WAS THE ANSWER TO MY SOCIAL NEEDS, HOWEVER I DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH WASHED UP FALL DOWNS THAT HAVE ALREADY WASTED THEIR ENTIRE LIVES BECAUSE FROM MY OWN EXPERIANCE THOSE PEOPLE ARE PUTTING ME AT HIGHER RISK OF RELAPSING THEN A REGULAR PERSON.
YEARS AGO BEFORE I USED TO BE FEARLESS. I WOULD TALK TO ANY ONE WITHOUT HESITATION OR FEAR OF REJECTION, THINKING IF THAT HAPPENS JUST TAKE IT AND MOVE ON TO THE NEXT PERSON I THINK IS INTERESTING. NOW I FEEL ANXIETY THAT I'VE NEVER KNOWN. MY LOOKS ARE YOUNG AND ATHETIC BEYOND MY AGE. EVEN NOW NO ONE BELIEVES I'M TURNING 33 I ENJOY DANCING. I WAS ADMIRED FOR MY NATURAL SKILL. YOGA AND TAI CHE. RECENTLY WENT OUT DANCING. IT WAS SCARY. I FELT EVERY LOOK/GLANCE, I USED TO FEED OFF IT BUT NOW IT'S DIFFERENT. YELLOW IS MY COLOR. ESENTRICALLY I SPORT IT ALONG WITH; IN SUPPORT OR OUR BROTHERS ABROAD-MY; FATHER IS A ACTIVE MP. I WAS BORN 9 11 IT FITS BECAUSE MY LIFE. I USED TO THINK I WOULD CONTINUE DOING WOMENS NAILS UNTIL I HAD ENOUGH CLIENTAL TO SUPPORT MY OWN SALON. I MIGHT STILL DO THAT PENDING A FINANCIAL SETTLEMENT. MUZIK OF CHOICE IS HARD TEKNO, HOWEVER I'LL SETTLE WITH PROGRESSIVE TRANCE/HOUSE-**** HAPPY HARDCORE; NOT TO GET THEM CONFUSED.
THEY SAY NO DAYS THE MAJORITY OF LASTING RELATIONSHIP START ONLINE SO I THOUGHT GIVE IT A TRY COULDN'T GET ANY WORSE.
Well I am becoming a little more JADED every time I go out of my way fighting to help those I can And for what? People I am again at a loss to how easy it is to use others Hell I mean I used to be pragmatic too, however in the end I made amends. I would love for once for someone especially my gf to go out of their way to make my life more comfortable instead of take, take, take and then when you say no they throw a fit and become vindictive because you were unable not that I didn't want to because my crutch is always to help those I can no matter the risk or loss without fail. If there is anyone out there that reads this and feels the same way message me and will hang out SHOW YOU THERE ARE MEN OUT THERE THAT WILL TREAT YOU THE SAME OR BETTER THEN I MYSELF WANT TO BE TREATED.
HAVE A DEEP INTELLECTUAL CONVERSATION ABOUT; WITH ME PRETTY MUCH ANY TOPIC. LISTEN TO YOU AND LEARN WHAT YOU LIKE AND/OR INTERESTED IN.
I CAN PREFORM BETTER THEN ADVERAGE WHEN IT COMES TO MY E NDURANCE; DESPITE THE FACT I AM OUT OF SHAPE. (LOOKING FOR A YOGA PARTNER)
DO YOU LIKE FAKE NAILS ? I AM CERTIFIED IN THE APPLICATION OF EITHER "GEL/ACRYLIC NAILS. I CAN ALSO DO FIBERGLASS, HOWEVER I THINK THAT'S GOING A LITTLE OVER BOARD; break your finger before the nail.
DINNER AND DANCING OR MAYBE BEFORE THAT WE SPEND SOME TIME LEARNING MORE ABOUT THE OTHER FEEL OUT IF WE ARE COMPADIBLE OR IF WE CLASH. I AM UP FOR ALMOST ANYTHING WITH IN REASON.
anything would be better then being alone.