... VGL widowed white male, married 39 years, 6 months, 4 days my wife recently succumbed, cystic bronchiectasis; respiratory acidosis. I am crestfallen. Emotional aspect of her passing, I was unprepared. My thoughts were, manning up, gathering myself back up, toughing it out -- no meds, no alcohol, not even an aspirin pill -- intellectualizing my wife s passing full-force, feeling what I'm supposed to feel, perhaps I'll emerge stronger, out the end of this tunnel? Putting in the work, putting myself back together, what little in life I can't solve, I can fix. So, I thought. I could use a little help. Here's hoping you're the one - asj.