To my next GF or future wife I will pursue you, But I won't chase you, because there's a difference. Pursuit comes from love. Chasing comes from Fear. I'll pursue you with intention. I will show up! I'll initiate! I'll even plan the date! I'll pay attention to what lights you up, and remember The little things that matter to you. I'll send the text, I'll call just to hear your voice, And I'll lead with clarity and consistency because, I don't want you to ever guess how I feel about you, But I won't chase mixed signals. I won't fight for a space where I'm kept at arms length. I won't keep knocking on a door that you've already closed, & I won't beg to be chosen by somebody who doesn't choose me back. I've already done that before. I've bent myself to fit someone else's uncertainty. I've Tried to earn love with effort, while slowly losing myself in the process. I've chased, hoping one day they'd come around. Calling Inconsistency "Chemistry" thinking to myself if I only held on long enough that they'd, finally see me! And I paid for it with pieces of my peace, my confidence, and my identity. So no! I won't chase you! Because chasing feels like auditioning, and love shouldn't make you feel like, You're not enough as you are! I will pursue you with everything I've got. With truth, with my whole heart, but only if I'm met with something real in return. Not perfection! But Effort. Not Walls! But Willingness. Not Games! But god s Honest Presence. But I won't lose myself trying to convince you to see me. I won't fight for a connection that's one-sided, And I won't carry something alone that's supposed to be carried together. So yes! I will pursue you, but if I'm the only one showing up, I'll stop! I'll stop knocking, & walk away. With my peace, my power, and my self respect intact. Not to punish you, but to protect me, because I know what I bring! I know how I love! And I've finally learned that real love doesn't run when it's seen. It leans in, and it chooses back!
