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Hello,

Well, under coercion of my girlfriend you have come across my photograph. Truly, this is difficult, and I think the difficulty in trying to describe the reason why we are on this messenger service, and attempting to describe ourselves in a nutshell, is why so many others do not have their many years of life broken down into a few paragraphs. There is certainly a question of how much to reveal before scaring someone away based on your own silly description before they really haven't gotten a chance know the real person, and then also then there is also the chance of sounding like a narcissist. So what to do? Sooo......

First I have to make excuses for not having a decent current photograph. Then I have to qualify the reason I am on a dating site because I've just leared how to walk again. Finally, the reason my girlfriend wanted me to become a member to begin with. So,....If you like, you can skip down to the area of you interest.

When looking for photos, to my surprise, I had none of myself. It appears that everyone who has taken my photo, and there has been plenty, has chosen to keep them for themselves. The most recent photo was hastily taken myself, and that is what you get when you demand to have a photograph or "judge a book by its cover". Men who have photos of their birds, or family, with an attempt at descriptions of themselves, I find more attractive than someones individual photogragh, and "I Am A Man seeking A Women" WOW You Could Have Fooled Me!! Because this is a "dating" site, I could have written my autobiography, and if I didn't have a photograph, I doubt seriously if any of you men would contact me. Well, with the photos I have at the moment, the end results may be the same. All I can say is I feel more beautiful than my photographs, and my friends, and admirers make me feel much more pretty than those photos too! Well, as beautiful as I can feel right now with the weight gain I've had to deal with since my accident, I can honestly say for the first time in my life I have become very insecure with my appearance. Most women my age tell me they wish they looked like me, but I was HOT! Putting on as much weight, as I did in the last 1 1/2 years would make man, or women very insecure, so I'm dealing with it. Now that I can walk, well one step at a time with that! The worst part is not being able to ride on my Honda. Hearing the rumble of those bikes go by tears at my heart!!!

There have been way too many biker events that my little girl (honda shadow), and Dodo (my pet cockatiel) has missed, since I have just learned how to walk again in the last 4 months ago. Since then I have gained a lot of weight, and that in addition on relying on other people for the 1st time in my life does bear on a girls emotions and insecurities. Usually my friends, and people that would have wanted to meet me and didn't have the chance, would tell you that it is impossible to keep up with me. Life is too short with soooo many things to do, and so little time. Unfortunately I've had to slow down a lot, but I am trying to catch back up. Hopefully I will find a happy medium.

Your probably asking if I have any business being on a site like this if I'm broken/recovering. It took me a while to answer that myself. For many years, I've taken care of other people. Every man I've been also, has been selfish, and taken advantage of the situation and me. While I am a women who wants very much to love on a man, I am not going to financially support a man, not anymore! My girlfriend thinks that there are some good men out there that may at least say hello, so if you have anything bad to say, please make it short. A couple of years ago a few nasty remarks would have brushed right off, but I can't recall being on the end of any, but anyway my goodness, not everyone remains in perfect health, and accidents happen. Since I'm now at least showing progress, I think it will be interesting to see how a potential freindship/relationship will respond to someone in need when in general its out of character.

Before I started my business, it was hard to keep up with me. Children were my focus, and I volunteered my time at residentail treatment facilities, and conducted fund raisers. My son loved the activities, until I made it a career, and was working 60 hours a week. The BA, BS, MSW, CSW & IBECPT all out the window, so I could stay at home, and keep an I on my sone. So, I quit that, and started working at home. My son often attended to shows with me. The business, for increased profits requires me to travel across the US all year long, but the fun part is finding the fun things to do in between, because we got to drive across the country we were able to do so much more!

We traveled to different festivals, loved camping, fishing, snorkeling. Most of the time it was my Son & I growing up together. He was 16, and I was 39. Unfortunately he was extremely jealous of any man I met. My son ended up graduating from Camden Military Academy in South Carolina. Thank Goodness.

My web-site is still operating. Until I can get around more, I am only handling some of what my web-site generates.

What is really interesting, is since I got broken, and it wasn't from my mototcycle...is that all my "close" friends seem to have become "silent" freinds. They will all come out of the wood work when I am recovered and have money, and want to rock-n-roll again. Well, it seems I was everyone's MUSE, and it has made me really think about things.

When ever I'm out and about on my bike, I'm the one with the wine, or the wine trail map. I'm the one with the body painting supplies. I'm the one with the paper with all the festival event dates times & who's its what's it's. Or, after traveling threw the country, and end up at one of the art or music festivals in the city, we would end up at my Garden. It was always me planning, or the doing, or throwing the party!

My "Olympus" Garden in my back Yard, with the tall aborvitus surrounds a 14' x 10' x 24" deep sand box with real play sand. The kind of play sand you have to buy by the bag. I think there is 600 bags in there. Then I filled in the rest of the area with stone. Around the border I planted a hard stem ivy that would grow in towards the sand and stone, then up the lattace of the back deck where the hot tub/jaccuzi is. On the driveway side of the back porch I planted the forest fern (it's beautiful, and about 4' high). A friend of mine put in a self watering drip system around the garage for my hanging baskets. No, I do not use those ugly white pots! Somewhere in my travels, I picked up some beautiful ceramice pots with macrame hangers. Early in the spring I fill them with pretty white & green ivy that grows down (duh can't remember the name), and whatever is pretty that year! Of course there is lavender, and clematis growing everywhere else. Many who don't belong won't cross over though when they see all the gargoyles. There are many!

My indoor Garden is a Art Noveux Emporium devoted to the history of women and the Memory of the Greek/Roman Titans! Unfortunately when I was in the hospital for 10 weeks, it was left unattended with my son who was completely depressed, and surrounded by 6 un-employeed youths who did not know how to help my son, but certainly know how to help themselves. So....my indoor garden needs some works,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

However,,,,bottom line I have done all of this only to have gotten broken, and never been able to obtain my real goals. Sure I have been Independent, Weathly, Admired, Work Hard With What I Thought Were True Aspirations, but none of it really means anything to me.........I wanted to have lots of babies, and now I can't......I want someone who does have children, the more the better....I wanted to really love a man, passionately love a man, without feeling insecure or afraid.

Is there someone out there who is willing to help me get back on my feet again, or at least care about me. It has only been my son and I almost all my life, and he's grown and gone now. New things are expected. I know A LOT ABOUT A LITTLE, AND A LOT ABOUT CHILDREN!! I ride a motorcycle, but I don't know how to fix it very well, but I love duck tape, (especially purple) but I use silver on the bike). So is there anyplace on this planet with a man & children needing someone to complete a family?

Okay......do I win with the longest description on this site?

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